The early bird might get the worm, but the second mouse gets the cheese.

a week has passed since lessons officially started :)
time passes so fast its scary.
anyways...i'm trying to catch up on the new subjects-not that i'm doing much.
hahaha and i've already started skipping lessons - but they are the old subjects though..i'd be stoning during lecture cuz i've heard it all before. AND the teachers use the same old lecture slides for 1st and 2nd intake.
it's kinda annoying.

school's been good overall other than the fact that i'm going broke paying for notes.
$10 here. $20 there. $7 here. $10 there. $5 there. $5 there.
somehow i did a rough calculation and i think i spent about $60 on notes and house tee.
that's excluding the $200 for graphic calculator.
i have to fork out $30 bucks for it cuz i told my mum it was $170. but i want the sliver edition.
the black one looks really ugly :(

for the past few days i've been thinking about wheather or not to take KI.
people i've talked to said to take and there are signs after praying that i should.
i want to but i'm so afraid i wont be able to cope.
just looking at the formate for the exam scares me. lol :)
oh well...but i think i'm goons just get the textbook to read for pleasure.
and that calls for another $50.

it's wierd that i'm afraid to ask my dad for extra money to get all these stuff these days.
i mean afterall, he's my dad right?
and isn't it only right for him to pay for my stuff?
but he gets all annoyed and even pissed off when i ask for money.
"money money money. that's all ya'll come to me for."
i mean it's not like he can't afford it or anything.
like really...he can- and i'd say he can afford much much more than that.

even searching for a tuition teacher stresses me out now.
why? cuz it means i have to ask him for tuiton money every single month.
it's never been like that though. i've never thought twice before asking for money.
and it's not like there's financial difficulty or something.
in fact, it's the otherway round considering the fact that my brother's going to the army soon and there's no need to pay for his school fees or anything for that matter.

maybe it's cuz i've matured. i don't know...maybe.
i just feel bad spending so much all the time.
i've been given everything i've wanted all my life and all of a sudden it just seems that i don't know...that i've been asking for too much?

hahahahaha. suddenly a thought struck.
maybe i'm turning into a cheapo like nat and sandra. HAHAHAHAHA.
but nope...i still don't think i'm a cheapo.
i'm by far too generous to be a cheapo.
hahahahaha. and idon't think i can live being a cheapo.
it'd mean no cabs and no spending as and when i feel like it :)

nah...life will be too dull being a cheapo :)


oh yea...by the way i think i look awfully disgusting in my new uniform. my blouse is too big, and the tailor altered my skirt too short :(
so it looks really wierd now.