I LOVE YOU DARLINGS! :)

spent the whole day in town yesterday and bought a whole lot of stuff :)
lunched at fish & co with mummy then did a whole lot of shopping!
met up with sandra nat ethel and val at far east in the late afternoon so cuz it was just so damn crowded at far east.

everywhere you go you get pushed left right centre by annoying kiasu singaporeans. get pushed left right and centre by stupid screaming disgusting kids. get pushed left right centre while trying to give way to the elderly.

my god.....singaporeans shop like everything's free i tell you...
push push push push push. cannot say excuse me and wait for you turn is it?!
pffft....

and you wanna know why people like sandra can shop at far east without being claustrophobic?
sandra: ya...i can walk...i'm ah lian. people see me and they'll walk away already.

so walked around while waiting for the rest of the darlings.
what can i say? they are always late.
and we went around looking for an aldo outlet that carried the loafers ethel wanted with her size.
she got it at raffles city in the end.
200 bucks! oh well...she's rich :)

dinner at billy bombers :) courtesy of ethel and val.
it's the 1st time we got together since teresa's farewell...miss her.
the bill for 9 of us came up to about 170 over bucks.
nicole the loser had dinner with her boyfriend before meeting us!
just as we predicted.

(on the huge burger)
natalie:ok...the one who doesn't finish the burger is a pig.
sandra: ok. so what does that mean? eat or don't eat?
natalie: EAT!
(5 seconds later)
nat: whoa...i don't think i can finish.
sandra: PIIIIIG!!!!

and somehow or other during dinner we started talking about jennifer loh and how she's prob going to die and how sad it will be.
we even started talking about her funeral.
and she's not even dead yet.
hahahaa...how morbid.

walked around town till about 10 plus with ethel cheryl nat and sandra.
hahaha....so ethel had 20% discount for miss selfridge dorothy perkins and ben sherman which expires today. and cherly had $18 discount from topshop which expires today too.
being cheapskate singaporeans, sandra nat and i searched high and low for something to buy.
ha....and i bought another top from topshop :)

god knows when our next outing will be.
it's so difficult to get everyone together.
and it'd be even harder when the rest of them start school.
being in different schools, having different schedules.

it's so sad even thinking that some day, we might, just might lose contact.
life had thrown us in together for just 2 years.
we had our highs and lows for sure, going through thick and thin.
in just that mere 2 years we had so much fun together.
that 2 years would probably have shaped our lives or changed it in some aspect.

if we ever ever lose touch, the memories will be here to stay.

highway to recovery :)

i'm almost over the fact that i didn't do so well for the Os.
friends' support did help a whole lot. the darlings who messaged to ask how i was, and comforted me and all, even along corridors, thanks a whole lot :)
genevieve, nat, monique, sandra, jo and nic, you guys really helped a lot in comforting and helping me make a decision for my application :)
val, gwen, jo and sandra, thanks for going for ice cream with me to cheer me up :)

so i did the appeal for a review of my combined humanities on monday.
joann accompanied me :)
skipped school cuz i didn't think i could stand the thought of speanding a whole day in school looking at happy faces.
actually i didnt feel like going at all too.

anyways...i'm staying in tpjc since i've already settled down and i don't think i wanna spend time adjusting to a new environment.

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY :)

made valentine's day gifts yeaterday till like 1 in the morning.
came home real late after council.
and somehow or other my fingers hurt badly now.
but i was worth it :) i kinda like the gifts i made considering the fact that it's so last minute and i liked the gifts i received too :)

3 roses, one paper rose, one flower made from a shell spun by a silkworm, a bouquet of strawberries :)
those are the flowery gifts or gifts resembling flowers.
lots of cookies and chocolates and notes too :)
thanks guys!

skipping school on friday i think...1st 3 periods then chinese new year celebration.
so technically i'll only be going to school for 1 hour and 20 mins of pe.

and just for the record, i still haven't gotten all my clothes for chinese new year.

if i don't blog before sunday, then

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

a man is not finished when he is defeated. or is he?

just one unexpected grade and now i'm completely lost.
just that one subject.
otherwise i'd be in heaven.
that one subject turned heaven into hell.

smile, and the world will smile with you. laugh, and the world will think you're on drugs.

saw amy and monique at siglap today:)
ended up sitting with them and talking in macs.
i miss them so much...all the rubbish that we talk about.
and monique's still laughing over that ONE time i walked into the door at macs.
hahaha....and she made that stupid face again. the one that she used to do when she got my attention when i'm in at the front of the class presenting or sth.
no matter how stupid she looks, it's still funny.
and she told amy how i used to get scolded becaused i laughed when she makes those faces.

i miss those times...
and niq started talking about how we used to throw coins and make wishes everyday during recess!
it's so sad...i'll make a few more on friday :)

(on niq showing me a picture of the tallest guy in her school)
niq: look at the difference in height between him and the girl beside him.
me: the girl must be really short.
niq: she's amy's height!
me: but......amy is short!

and i confirmed with niq that danielle menon went to have her prom dress made just like my grad night dress. but in red.
pfft.......plagiarism. i designed it.

i got jacked by branson today.
cuz he had pe and so he had a shower after that.
(me to pretti)
me: hey pretti...we should bathe one day too!
branson: excuse me? say that again?
yup...the kind of seniors i have. hahahaha....but they're nice :)

meeting nat val and jo on friday at 10 :)
hahaha...i don't know if the school will even let us in that early.
oh well...if they don't we'll think of something else :)
then meeting nic and sandra and maybe ethel too at the prata shop around 12 :)

i'm already starting to panic.

and valentine's day....i don't know what to get everybody...
got a very very early valentine's day card from shermaine :)
well actually i think she gave it to me end of last week. or maybe it was beginning of this week. i can't really rmb. it might be monday though :)
thanks babe! what a sweet j2 :)

and i've been looking and feeling like shit the pass few days.
pms gets to me alright? consider yourself warned.

anyways....according to charmaine during geog, there was a fight between two guys before chem. - OVER A SEAT.
pls...the LT has so many seats!
it was a physical fight and one of the guy is that wierd overly dramatic guy.
i've got no comments regarding him.

watched fahrenheit 911 during gp today.
makes me wonder if george bush really is concerned about his country.


the early bird may get the worm, but the second mouse gets the cheese.

sometimes its just better to stand at the sidelines and watch from afar.

o-level results are coming out on friday.
i'm damn scared.
now i regret not studying, and waiting till the day before to study.
what if i can't even make it to a JC?
i have a feeling that will be that case.
i won't even be able to stay in TPJC.

i can feel the panic raising in me.
and i'll be the 2nd last to collect my results!
the whole world will be rejoicing and i'll be there waiting for my turn, having my heart thump against my chest as if it's about to fall out.

and on friday i'll be meeting the lovelies at 9 in sac :)
i'm skipping mass run.
i feel like going for mass run but then i wanna go hang out in sac too!
sit around, disturb the teachers, wander around, go to the prata shop....
but i wanna run with my friends and trs!
ha...and ms ho threatened not to write us recommandations for JAE should we need it if we don't go for the mass run.
but i still think i'll go back to sac =)

should i stay in TPJC? i like the people and the teachers there. actually, only MY teachers.
lol :) i love my GP teacher(i think she's the nicest teaceher i've ever had !) :) but what if i don't get her after 2nd intake?!
and my civics tutor?(she's real fun :)) and my theater studies teacher?(she's really fun too) and my math teacher(he's fun and really patient!)? and my chinese teacher(he speaks to me in english :) and he's really really nice)?
the only teacher i think i don't fancy is my econs teacher. she's the worse teacher in the whole school!

oh wells...i'll cry about my results and bemoan the fact that i didnt do well on friday.
maybe on sat or mon or sth...i might be too depressed.


it is the hardest thing ever, pretending it's nothing.

keep smiling. it makes people wonder what you're up to. :)

the weeks are going by really quickly. O-level results are gonna be out soon. maybe too soon.

talked to teresa yesterday :) i miss her so much. i miss the G8 so much. i miss 4/6 terribly. i miss bey bey. i miss adeline lim :(
oh wells...anyways, tree's the genius of her class. because genius decided to start in grade 11 instead of 12.
i wanna go to australia and be a genius too!
hahaha...but that poor girl is stucked with dial up at home. lol :)
the weeks will pass and we'll get to see phantom of the opera soon:)

ha...and i don't know why but i cracked and cried during GP yesterday.
not boo-hoo cried but yea...
i just got damn disturbed by the pillow angel girl.
poor dear...

i mean what right does anybody have at all to make such decisions for her?
to condemn her to a life where she'll be seen as a freak, more than she already is.
being mentally retarded is bad enough. the least her parents can do is to give her a life as normal as possible.
maybe, just maybe she knows what's going on, and is only unable to express herself in a way we understand.
maybe she's just like anyone else but who is trapped in a body which makes people see her as worthless, as a burden.
she's worthy of a life as much as any of us is.
maybe inside of her she's screaming to be given a chance to grow, to be normal.

stopping her from growing to her parent's convience.
life doesn't hold much meaning for her does it?
having breast buds and uterus removed from her.
having to be given injections to be kept small and light.
all she's doing now is probably eat, sleep, and waiting for death to come claim its fee.
what kind of life is that?
it was not fulfilling in the first place due to her mental disability.
but now she doesn't even have anything to look forward to.
we jump for joy at growing just 1 cm taller. she can't do that now. not even on the inside.

what makes anyone think she doesn't know what's going on?
to deny her the right to live, to grow as normally as possible in her condition?
afterall, she's human too right?
she has every right in the world to be allowed to live like a normal being.

i understand that her parents have their difficulties too.
and that they have her interest at heart.
that's what makes this whole thing so disturbing.
for or against? i don't really know.

moving on, i got 31/50 for my 1st GP essay :)
it's good alrights? or so my teacher said.
actually it had better be good. i spent a whole day doing it despite being sick.
794 words :)

clara's GP teacher was a total arse.
he accused her of photocopying someone else's essay cuz her printer was wonky and there were yellow dots on her paper.
just because he plagiarised in the uni and it caused him his honours dosen't mean the whole world is as unoriginal as he is. pffft.....
and i read this somewhere : To steal ideas from one person is plagiarism; to steal from many is research. :)

oh...and i realised my photo album on shutterfly is kinda wonky. there are two of the same albums. and it's not complete either.
not much photos of the arch and the colossium and none of fountaine de travi!
i'll update it soon :)


adios:)