sometimes its just better to stand at the sidelines and watch from afar.

o-level results are coming out on friday.
i'm damn scared.
now i regret not studying, and waiting till the day before to study.
what if i can't even make it to a JC?
i have a feeling that will be that case.
i won't even be able to stay in TPJC.

i can feel the panic raising in me.
and i'll be the 2nd last to collect my results!
the whole world will be rejoicing and i'll be there waiting for my turn, having my heart thump against my chest as if it's about to fall out.

and on friday i'll be meeting the lovelies at 9 in sac :)
i'm skipping mass run.
i feel like going for mass run but then i wanna go hang out in sac too!
sit around, disturb the teachers, wander around, go to the prata shop....
but i wanna run with my friends and trs!
ha...and ms ho threatened not to write us recommandations for JAE should we need it if we don't go for the mass run.
but i still think i'll go back to sac =)

should i stay in TPJC? i like the people and the teachers there. actually, only MY teachers.
lol :) i love my GP teacher(i think she's the nicest teaceher i've ever had !) :) but what if i don't get her after 2nd intake?!
and my civics tutor?(she's real fun :)) and my theater studies teacher?(she's really fun too) and my math teacher(he's fun and really patient!)? and my chinese teacher(he speaks to me in english :) and he's really really nice)?
the only teacher i think i don't fancy is my econs teacher. she's the worse teacher in the whole school!

oh wells...i'll cry about my results and bemoan the fact that i didnt do well on friday.
maybe on sat or mon or sth...i might be too depressed.


it is the hardest thing ever, pretending it's nothing.