the trouble with having an open mind is that people will insist on coming along and try to put things into it.

i seem to be acquiring a talent for getting into trouble.
screwing up seems to be second nature now.

from now on, when i'm happy, i'm gonna say i'm happy.
when i'm not, it's gonna be so explicit you'd better watch out.
i'm gonna start writing emotions on my forehead.

it's really funny though...that people think i'm angry when i'm not.
when they think i'm upset but i'm really feelng fine.
like the way they perceive things it's like i'm perpetually angry and upset or something.
i'm nice. REALLY.

just because i tend to put in my 2 cents worth of opinion doesn't mean that i'm not happy with the way things are.
i am.
i just need to open my mouth and say something.
shutting up isn't normal for me.

and i don't get upset easily.
i'm sensitive, yes. but not to that extent where i bear grudges or anything.
i usually forget things really quickly.
like i once told gissy...i don't know how to hate people.
i don't know how to stay angry at people and bear grudges.
i just don't know how, and i can't seem to learn how to. not that i want to.
i like the fact that i forgive and forget easily.
sometimes much too easily, if i do say so myself.

i don't see a point in staying angry at people.
like why make myself miserable and upset with something that is over and done with?
and maybe i just love too much.
gis says i use the word love too loosely.
but i can't help it.
love was meant to be given away right?
love isn't love until you give it away.
and i believe that we love everyone to some extent.
family, friends, even acquaintances.
in a different way maybe, but it's still love.
and it's that love that overcomes all hatred and offences.

what is the point of staying angry at someone?
and how do people actually manage it?
i'm not saying i'm a saint or something but it's just that i just don't know how to.
like hate. how is it that people can hate someone so much? hate someone to the CORE?
i don't HATE anyone.
but of course there are people that i don't fancy. i'm only human right?

and i don't really take things people say to heart much.
it's like people think i get upset at their words when i've long forgotten about it.
take haosheng for example.
like that time he was spewing rubbish at macs saying that i find his friend cute and all, he thought i was REALLY angry.
i wasn't even close to angry.
not even for a moment.
but he thought i was. and it's like he was still so worried trying to give an explanation and all when i've long forgotten about it.
i like forgot about it the moment i stepped out of macs.
fast huh?

i don't remember such rubbish stuff.
there are so much more important stuff in my life that i need to get in order.
where do i find the time to care about itsy bitsy things like that?
but then again, there's not much to care about because such things don't bother me much.
they don't affect me.
i don't take them to heart.
so why do people worry that i'll get upset over what they have said?
especially when some things are said in good fun.
i'm not a petty person.

a quintessential romantic has too much love to give away more often than not.

believe me.
i'm nice. really.