when people are stressed, they want to stop thinking. but that's the time they need to think most.

never in my life have i thought about withdrawing from school.
school seriously sucks.
maybe not school but the work load and all the stupid tests and exams that come with it.
i'm serious. i've never been so hyped up over tests before.
studying so hard for damn faculty tests that my brains are threatening to blow up.
and after all my efforts, i'd probably fail anyways.

i don't see how mathematical induction, proving math eqautions, learning to generate dumb series and sequences and inequalities to determine the range of x is going to be of any use in the future.
nor is geography and population-resource relationships gonna help me find a potential mate.
school needs to start teaching stuff that are related to reality.
like etiquette for people who have absolutely none of those, and how to make big bucks in the corporate world.
learning how to hook richs guys would definately be essential.


ok, maybe i'm not studying that hard.
but right? who in the right frame of mind would study during a long sought after holiday?
i've got 2 faculty tests tomorrow and i'm only starting today.
i know...it's potential suicide.

if not for my lovely class and really nice teachers, i would have bade school goodbye.
i seriously think they are what i go to school for nowadays.
i don't really seek to learn anymore.
learning is not fun when you don't get to do it at your own pace.
when someone force-feeds you, you'll inevitably throw up.

that's how i feel right now. i feel like throwing up.
to have all that rubbish purged from my system.
disgusting.

i'm blogging now not because i really have stuff to say.
i'm doing it only to delay studying.
i need to start studying. i know.

all these just for 2 papers tomorrow.
all the panicking, and worry, and confusion due to the lack of knowledge.
and 30% of my promotion is going to be based on that mere miserable 2 hours.


i live for the weekends now.
never have i looked forward to weekends like i do now.
weekends means sleep. fun. shopping. chilling. zoo.
it means everything but study.
it means one and a half days free from mindless worrying.

and this post is getting longer and longer.
i can't put off studying any longer.



today is the tomorrow you worried about yesterday.