one day i'll fly away.

i really wish i can fly away right now.

i'm feeling depressed and all emotional.
i don't know what to think.

chinese just got me all upset.
B4?!
i really have nothing to say.
how am i gonna do well when i got a freaking 4 for chinese?

to re-take it or not?
but it will just be a total waste of time considering the fact that i don't study for chinese.
4 hours each week.
that's a lot.

i still can't believe i got a 4.
i expected a 3.
i mean come on!
the whole freaking world got a 3.
and my chinese is bad.....but not THAT bad.
i'm in band 2 for crying out loud!

i cried.

i was in shock when i got my results.
i was just asking myself what that 4 meant.
then reality hit me.

that was when my eyes started swelling with tears.
i didn't want to cry.
just holding back eveything.....well almost.
it gave me a headache.

but i broke down when i told my mum.
it was so difficult saying it.
saying it made it even more real.

that 4 is unacceptable for my L1R5.
it just means i have to work my butt off for the rest of the subjects.
but it's killing me.
it's eating me from the insides.

i have my study plan written out.
i just pray i'll have the strength to carry them out throughly.



on a lighter note, things have been wonderful for the past few days....until today came along.
it's so difficult to even type the word wonderful at the moment.

geog lessons on monday was funny...
i can't really remember why but it was good.

(on the tress in the tropical rainforest)
ms lim: why are the brunches at the top of the tree?
jill: because that's where the leaves are?
(silence)
(ms lim bursts out laughing ---- out loud)
ms lim: that's like me asking you why the giraffe has such a long neck and you telling me because it's head is up there!!!


sports day was good too..
seven eighth of the class was late.
we came and had to write our names on the late-comers' list and we realised three quaters of it was from 4/6.

(looking for mrs lim to take attendence)
nicole: where is she?!
nicole and i: (just shouting randomly) MRS LIM! MRS LIM!

(upon finding her)
me: why are you hiding here?! i'm like a lost child looking for my mother.
mrs lim: haiya! i want to disown ya'll already.
(after she takes down our name)
mrs lim: get lost! get lost!

hahahahaha :)

(participating in the human wheel)
mrs yip: what class are you from?
me: 4/6
mrs yip: ok! i'll be your timer.
nicole: DON'T WANT! we want mrs lim! (grins)
mrs yip: (looking rejected and lost) oh...ok.
me: mrs lim!
mrs lim: what you want now????


(on mrs lim participating in the human wheel with the math department.)
nicole and i: mrs lim!! you must win! we love you!
me: you have to beat the chinese department! or it'd be damn embarrassing!
(mrs lim turns, only to face the whole chinese department beside her)
mrs lim: SHHHHH!!!!

(on mrs lim standing in the middle in human wheel)
me: mrs lim! you can't stand in the middle!
mrs lim: why?
nicole and i: (raise hands up) 'cos you cannot reach!
mrs lim: hey! i can ok?

hahahahahahahaha. she was damn hilarious!
and mrs lim had the most supporters ;)

we got gold for human wheel and bronze for gladiatress :)

(conversation with ms lim)
teresa: ms lim! why don't you go down and play something? gladiatress?
miss lim: thanks. i prefer to keep my brains.

(on miss lim sitting up there cause she prefers to decide who wins or loses)
laura: but you can't do maths!
miss lim: that's what the calculator is for.
(produces calculator)
miss lim: SEEEEE?!

hahahahahahahaha :)

i got a really nice tan from sports day.
was like all nice red and brown till yesterday.
and today, everything was gone!
nothing to show off...lol :)
but my cheeks were really nicely pink!

actually, there constantly pink.
lol :)
but it was damn nice over the holidays.


oh yes...
miss lim is like PMS-ing......big time.
she sent all of us out of class today.
ALL.
1st time this term.
she's been perfect all term until today.

i think practically every single class she had suffered today.
4/6 (x2), 4/7, 3/6, 3/5.

and today after i cried, or was still crying for that matter,
niq, poh and i went to the toilet so i could dab water on my eyes to make them less red and puffy.
so i went to the teachers' toilet to get toilet paper cuz our freaking toilet was deprived of it again.
when i opened the door to come out mrs lim was just standing there staring at me.
together with niq and poh.

thanks guys...
see a teacher, talk and joke with her but don't warn me.

but she was nice.
i think she saw those red eyes.
so she smiled.

and MRS BOO!
if you googled yourself i hope this comes up.
to aid your search, SAC, sac, st anthony's.

you!
you're sooo mean.
i'm so upset about my B4 and there you go screaming "LOUSY!"
boo you!
so insensitive.

and when we were at the foyer she did that again.
and this time she mouthed it.
with actions.

annursha: we should all just turn to look the other direction so she'll look like a crazy woman talking and making exaggerated actions to herself.

hahahahahha.

and we had a long lunch again today.
annursha wanted to experience a deep conversation but obviously it was impossible with her around.

then we went back to school at like 4 for fun.
went to the chapel.

up the second floor :)
and climb out the window to this open space outside.
a "rooftop".
cool, but the sun was scotching.

i love the chapel :)

it's so big and pretty :)

unlike primary school where it was a tiny room.

and the corner outside the chapel facing the grassy land and the big canal is also really peacful.

good place to talk, sleep and simply get away from everything.

but more and more people are getting to know that place.