my life is one big joke.

FINALLY! blogger's back to normal :)
i've had my highs (really high) and my lows(way down at the bottom of the ocean) for the past few days.

monday was nearly perfect. and the word nearly is essential here.
everything was going so damn well for me.

human geography: i topped the class for the test. 10/12 :)

economics test the whole cohort took: i got 4th in class with 36/50. :)
i thought it was rather good considering the fact that the teachers said the test was hard and the rest of the level thought it was beyond our abilities.
but mr lim said i under-performed though. but it's good what! he thinks too highly of me :)

chemistry faculty test: 20 and the 1/2 over 30 .
highest amongst the people in my class who take chem with me.
which happens to be only 6 of us.
the highest in the chem class (combined) was 26.
it's not very good but at least i passed :)

chemistry class test: i just passed this paper but considering the umber of people who failed it i think it's good :)

also, the day was improved when i could do my physical geog quiz.
i don't think i did very well because i have absolutely no artistic talents and i was supposed to draw some big diagram on plate tectonics.
but still, it was do-able :)

THEN

chinese totally ruined my otherwise perfect day.
had chinese orals which was counted into the mid-year and promo results.
i fucked up my orals big time. no. even that is an understatement.
i think i did the worse in my chinese class.

even people like sheereen in the C5 class could get 23/30 for orals.
i'm in the B4 class and judging from what lao shi told us, i think i got a 15.
it's damn depressing.

and technically, it is not fair.
the class whose standards are worse get easier passages to read.
but the percentage of the marks taken into promos and mid-years is still the same!
like right? so obviously they will do better!
i'd get a better grade if i was in their class!

it's down right depressing. everyone said it was easy except me.
i think lao shi got bored listen to me read the passage and i got so demoralised i just refused to say much during the conversation part.
and i won't even look at her. hahaha.
it was depressing :(

then yesterday, there was a GP compre test.
and nobody told me it was our mid-years until after the test.
like what the hell?!
and 2 minutes before the paper ended i realised i wasn't answering the application question. i was totally out of point.
2 minutes before the bloody paper ended!
and there was nothing i could do! i was in a total state of shock.
and I WROTE 1 AND 1/4 PAGES LONG for that question!
i was still rather confident of my arguement that is until i decided to read the question again to see if i missed out any point.

result? i realised i miss the WHOLE bloody point.
that's it. 8 bloody marks gone.
i don't see how i can do well for that paper when i just screwed up the section that i'm best at.

see? that's like 2 HUGE blows in 26 hours.
this is like a joke i tell you. A JOKE.
my life is like a joke.
it feels as if god's making a monkey out of me.
it's damn depressing. :(

i was the only happy person on monday when we got back all our results and now i'm the one who's totally depressed because none of them did worse than me for chinese orals and most likely GP. :(

and project work is a total waste of time.
my group sucks and they are pissing me off.
i got put in a group with the worse people in the class and now i've got to work with them for the res6t of the year.
the worse part? my grades are dependant on them.
i can totally see myself doing the whole project myself for the rest of the year.
it's like they can't even be bothered!
the 1st group task is the GPP. I DID IT ALL ALONE.
why? cause those fucked up people won't use their brains to think of anything.
everything you ask them, they'll either give a useless asnwer or they'll go " you think la.."
if i do all the work then why am i letting them put their signatures on it?
after all, isn't it my work and mine alone?
fuckers are acting like sponges. parasites. living off me.

adriene was really sweet. she offered help even though she already got her A for PW.
thanks babe :)
and even she thinks i'm being taken advantage of.
can you believe it? me? jerine? being taken advantage of?
well you'd better. that's the state i'm reduced to.

oh…and gourie was funny today.
during chinese lecture we were bullshitting and all.
gis, if I upset you when I said stuff about the play I’m sorry k?
I was talking about the plot. of course if you’re going to stage it I’ll be there even if the plot was the suckiest one in the world.

mr lim was absent today. so we got 2 free periods during econs.
walked aimlessly around the school.
and laughed at all the retarted pictures of some teachers outside the general office.

and there are like only these 2 male teachers who are Indians and they both don moustache and everyone keeps insisting that they look alike.
like hello??? so every Indian guy who has a moustache is the HOD of humanities is it?
and every short and fat china man is mao ze dong.

oh and i sat beside mr lim for pw lecture on monday. i think he's damn nice :)
mr lim: whoa...very boring.
me: tell me about it.
mr lim: (points to my lecture slides) at least you've got something to copy! mine's all filled up!
me: (conveniently swing my stack of slides to him) nah...entertain yourself.


(lao shi, althea and gourie were outside the general office having lessons)
me: hello! hi lao shi…
gourie: eh…ok la you best. say hello to lao shi never say hello to us la!
me: I SAID HELLO AND GOOD MORNING TO YOU THIS MORING!
gourie: that was then. so you can only say hello to the same person once a day la…lao shi, she’s not going to say hello to you for the rest of the day.
me: hello lao shi!

me: I’ve got absolutely nothing to do for the next 1 and a half hours.
gourie: come do Chinese with us.
me: YOU SIAO AH?
lao shi: (laughs)
gourie: orh…lao shi is just sitting here!
(lao shi gives me the “you just insulted my subject” look)
me: whoops. i'm speaking in english! you don't understand a single thing! *grins*


(discussing indonesia's former president suharto who got off scott free for his crimes)
me: but he's not really sick right? he probably made it up so why is the judge so stupid?
mrs chia: well his illness is verified by the doctor.
me: the doctor must be mentally unsound too. besides, i can bribe a doctor to say that i'm mentally and physically unfit. works the same way as buying mc.
atiqah: orh...now we know how jerine gets her MCs.
mrs chia: the doctor verified it and the judged believed so there. ok moving on...(continues speaking)
me: LIAR!


mrs chia: he embazzeled a few hundered million US dollars. and that's on top of his basic pay. and you know how much ministers earn right? just look at our prime minister. he's earning more than george bush!
(berlyn takes out a calculator to calculate how much the prime minister earns a year)
mrs chia: berlyn, i think we all know that it's a huge sum. so all of you should become ministers next time.
me: ya...and embazzle all the funds. but i'll be faster than suharto. i'll get the same amount he got in a decade instead of 3.
berlyn and atiqah: so NOW we know......